Rest In Peace, Alphonsine Marie. 

Love you, oh so much.

It’s almost like everything that has happened during this past week has all gone away. We talked about everything from boys to TeenSpot. And she doesn’t even go on TeenSpot. Luckily, she’s always there for and I’m always there for her. She just went on and on about the things I did wrong and I went on about her bad things. We made each feel better. 

This past week is over with. I’ll move on. 

Nicole and I, will do that more often, especially when having horrible weeks. Maybe Elyse will come someday. Who knows? The man upstairs does. 

Everything happens for a reason. :]

That is all. :]

Obamanation! Finally. I’m SO proud to be an American citzen, I thought about it while watching the inauguration all day yesterday. Obama will do better than Bush. Finally, he is President of the United States, finally time has come for change. Finally, finally, finally.

Oh and he can do a hell of a speech. :]

Why, yes. Indeed, I do read. Well, today I decided to be productive for once. I went into my cousin’s bookbag that she had brought with her to here. It’s that book, the picture. That’s the book, I’m reading. It’s quite good, I’m enjoying it. Well, whilst reading it, I came across a list that had changed alot, in my eyes. For what’s going on between my friend and I, I think it had helped a little. I, also should give credit to Les Miserables, Broadway performances, and Friends. They all helped, just like the book! So, I’ve decided to share the list with you all.

I give credit to Kay Allenbaugh, who is the author of the list and the author of the book.

Tips For Teen Dreams

1. Focus on your dream. Plot a course that will help you reach it and then begin to take small steps down the path.

2. Identify and develop your talents. It takes a lot of courage, but if you do, opportunties will come your way!

3. If you are feeling troubled or uncertain, find a quiet place that nurtures your peace of mind.

4. Read inspirational stories. They remind you of what is possible in your life.

5.  Act wisely! When your actions match your values you are paving the way toward your goal.

6. When a dream comes true, celebrate!

7. Laugh yourself silly at least once every day.

8. Expect miracles! God has a plan for each of us, and that includes you!

9. When you have doubts, ask someone you trust to believe for you.

10. Discover what brings you joy because happiness comes from the inside.

11. Eat a little chocolate! It will release endorphins and lift your sprirts.

12. Do not judge others. If you judgemental, it says more about you than about anyone you have judged.

13. Good choices lead to bigger dreams.

14. Replace each negative thought you have about yourself with two that are postive. If you can your thinking, you can change your life.

15. Take care of yourself as if you were your best friend (because you are).

16. Thank your parents for something on a regular basis.

17. If you get stuck, seek the advice of a wise woman.

18. Look back at the first goal you accomplished and realize how far you have come!

19. Remember to say your prayers.

- Kay Allenbaugh. (pg. 22-23)

Now, only a few of those help for my little problem right now. Numbers: 5, 7, 9, 10, 12, 14-17, and 19. I do or will do.

Number 14 for sure, is what I need to do and I will. I’ll learn to be more optimistic than pessimistic.

I honestly recommend this book to anyone. Even though, I’m not finished with it and it’s very good.

I know it will. One day.

I miss the the normal times. I wish I wasn’t making so many mistakes.

I’m ruining everything. I know I am.

I’m sorry.

Anyways, basically I got a close friend of mine mad at me. I know I really shouldn’t blog about it, but I do really care and I myself is hurt by it. I never meant to get, let’s call this person Rian. (Ryan/Rian is a unisex name, so why not use it.) So, I never meant to get Rian mad, I didn’t mean to put s/he on a guilt trip and then get s/he mad at me. Rian yelled at me and I saw another side, I seriously never ever want that to happen again. I feel so horrible and guilty. I know, I’ll get over it in about 2 to 4 days. I just feel like crying and beating myself up, but I’m being told I should not. It’s the worst and I know that. It’s just that if I get someone mad at me and like, yelling mad, I get guilty and I just want to escape. It’s hard to deal with what just happened. I’m going to Hawaii or I’ll just go cry or something. It was NOT in any shape or form for me to put Rian on a guilt trip. I forced it upon s/he. I shouldn’t have. I hope I won’t do it again. I’ll have to program my will power to stop myself. I know, I know, I know, I can. I will. I know I will.

Basically, I’m so sorry for what I did. I didn’t mean it, I swear. I never meant to start anything. You know that. You know, I didn’t mean to start anything. I’m taking all the fault. I’m the one who put you on the trip. I’m the one who you got mad at. I’m the one who gets mad at you for stupid reasons. I’m the one that you yelled at.

I’m so so so sorry. I didn’t mean anything. Forgive me, please? I kind of know you will but still. You’re still an amazing friend and I don’t think that there are enough thank you’s in the world. You helped me so much and I still get mad at you.

Also, I’m on a Friends spree. I enjoy it a whole lot. I’m pretty sure, Pheobe is my favourite.

I think this is all I can really say today. It’s been weird a week, but a pretty awesome, Saturday night.

For those of you who don’t know who she is, she played Margot in Legally Blonde The Musical on Broadway! She also played Sharpay in High School Musical 1 and 2. I didn’t see HSM1 but tonight I did see HSM2! AH, she is so pretty and so nice!

That’s all I can say. Here’s her autograph!:

Alright, so I just came home from seeing Bride Wars. The critics had said it was a D- movie. HOWEVER, I enjoyed it. It’s not a D- movie in my book. Anne Hathaway and Kate Hudson were BOTH gorgeous in it. I’m biased because I just adore Kate Hudson, so she’s always pretty. Anne, I’m iffy about. I liked her in Princess Diaries 1, 2, 3…how many were there? Three? Sure, whatever.  I’m starting to like Anne more and more, but Kate will always be one of my favourites.

Alright, now to a question from Samantha. She asked how different are you in real life from on the forums/blogs/internet in general? Well, I’m basically the same. I talk and type the same, but normally my voice shows more emotion, obviously. I normally say the same things, like I’m typing this and whispering to myself on what I’m typing. I’m not really all that different, however, when online I tend to throw up fronts to most people. There is only about four or five ”e-friends” that I do tell if I’m not in such a good mood or anything like that. IRL, I do have my “Genny moments”, a few people know those and I tell them a warning ahead of time. So basically I’m not all that different.

BTW, Samantha will be mentioned alot because she’ll be giving me questions 2, 3, 4 times a week or whatever. :]

That’s all for now.